Doctors Appointment

Today we went to the doctor, but it wasn't our first official prenatal appointment. I simply needed to sign up for insurance and get a referral to an OB/GYN. At this point I am seven weeks pregnant and my due date is July 4, 2010. My first prenatal appointment is set for December 9th. I'm excited and a bit nervous. I really hope they do a sonogram. It would put my mind at ease.

The whole insurance and finding a doctor process wasn't nearly as difficult as I expected. I bombarded the doctor with questions to which he was very accommodating in answering. I'm very concerned about this whole swine flu vaccination. Personally, I do not feel that flu vaccinations are safe during pregnancy, especially the swine flu vaccine since the drug companies are in such a rush to get the stuff out that it probably hasn't been adequately tested. I mean, we have no idea how this stuff will affect unborn fetuses and I sure as hell don't want my child to be the guinea pig for this whole swine flu vaccination experiment. I wondered if maybe I was being paranoid, but the doctor said that he didn't recommend it, at least not for the first two trimesters. He said if I started having flu like symptoms to just come in and they would put me on Tamiflu. It's a tough decision to make as an expecting mother, but I feel that I'm doing what's best for my baby.

I left my doctors appointment feeling a little more assured. Before I left the office the nurse practitioner placed my pregnancy test in a zip lock bag and handed it to me. I asked what I needed it for and she said that I might want to hang on to it and put it in a scrap book or something. What?! Seriously? First of all, I don't scrapbook, and even if I did, ewww! I peed on that! Do people really do that?
Weird.

I'm Actually Pregnant

Three years ago John and I decided to try for our first baby. I was really disappointed when I wasn't able to conceive. My doctor at the time misdiagnosed me as having endometriosis and said that it was unlikely that I would be able to conceive. After about the two year mark I started coming to terms with the fact that this probably wasn't going to happen for us, so you can imagine my surprise when I was actually "late" this month.

As of right now I am only a week late, but I decided last night that I would take a pregnancy test first thing this morning. After going through the denial/grieving/acceptance process for the past year I can't help but be skeptical, but last night I had the most amazing dream and it gave me hope. I actually saw my baby! At least, I guess it was my baby, but it was the most precious little baby. I couldn't tell the sex, but he/she was only a few weeks old and I fell in love immediately. It was the last dream I had before I woke up.

John is still asleep and I just took my pregnancy test. It's positive! I can't believe I'm actually pregnant! No seriously, I'm really having a hard time believing that I'm actually pregnant, but I still can't help but be excited!

If I am actually pregnant it's a blessing from God and one that I am truly grateful for. Personally I'm not partial to either sex. John is partial to having a son, but as long as it's a healthy baby I consider myself blessed and could not ask for more.